Infertility in Sobriety

I've spoken in the past about the "Big Duh" when it comes to asking yourself why your life is in constant turmoil. For me, the "Big Duh" was my alcoholism. Even in the midst of all of the numbing, boozing, and pills, I could see that my life would become tremendously more manageable if I [...]

A Very Merry Infertile Christmas

The holidays. It's a time of year that I usually can never wait to arrive. Growing up, the month of December always held a great deal of excitement. Not only would I celebrate Christmas, but my birthday is also in the month of December. There was nothing more exciting than breaking out the Christmas decor, [...]

The Power of Letting Go

I have been trying to get pregnant for over 2 years now. While I know that many have tried longer and maybe even harder, I am letting go now. Two IUI's, two IVF's, countless procedures, and one miscarriage......I'm letting go. Tears, pain, questioning, reasoning, rationalizing, wanting and waiting......I'm letting go. Painful injections, horrible side effects, [...]

When All You Know Is That You Don’t Know – A Lesson In Humility

Surrender; letting go. These are words that are heard often when being taught how to cope with something that we cannot control. "Give it to God," we say. There is nothing tangible or straightforward about this, but many of us (including myself) will say it as a form of comfort to someone as if it [...]

For Those Who Can’t Be Mothers – You’re Not Alone On Mother’s Day

Mothers Day is a wonderful day to celebrate the love and sacrifice that so many mothers offer. It is a day that I should only be thinking about appreciating my own mother (and I do). However, when you have been struggling to become a mother yourself, it can be gut-wrenching. Last year was the hardest. [...]

How A Miniature Dachshund Saved My Life

  For as far back as I can remember, I have always been an animal person. Growing up, I had all kinds of animals ranging anywhere from cats and dogs to lizards and rodents. I have worked as a veterinary professional for almost 15 years, and although I have recently decided to make a career [...]

Follow The Bread Crumbs

Have you ever heard the saying "God laughs when we make plans?" While it carries a somewhat pessimistic undertone, I think that the older I get the more I understand it. We all make plans. Society teaches us to make plans. You grow up, move out of your parent's house, obtain employment, etc. Maybe you [...]