Addiction is Just a Symptom

I spent a large portion of my life feeling like something was missing. It was like I was literally a walking puzzle with all but one piece. No matter what I did, I never felt complete. In the beginning, you think it must be that something specific is missing. Something tangible. If I just find [...]

10 Things I Learned During My First Year of Sobriety

The first year of sobriety is a physical, emotional, and spiritual roller coaster. When I got sober in 2010, I knew that I was in for a ride. There were plenty of ups and downs, laughs and tears - but man, there is just nothing like finally picking up your one-year medallion! Here are 10 [...]

How I Got Through the First 90 Days of Sobriety

December 7th, 2010 was the last time that any mood altering substance entered my body. Prior to that, I had been a slave to the disease of addiction since the age of 21. I took my first drink at the age of  13. I had no idea what the future held from that first drink [...]

The Freedom To Be Me

I am not the most unique nor the most boring person. I am not the most beautiful, but definitely not ugly either. I did not come from an impoverished family but did not come from riches. My life has not been something from a Hollywood movie, but I can assure you it has not been [...]

The Trouble With Fear

When I was beginning my journey in sobriety, a counselor had me make a list of all of my fears (us twelve-steppers know this as a part of the fourth step). These weren't tangible things like spiders or snakes, but rather the aspects of life that made you want to run the other way. For [...]

When All You Know Is That You Don’t Know – A Lesson In Humility

Surrender; letting go. These are words that are heard often when being taught how to cope with something that we cannot control. "Give it to God," we say. There is nothing tangible or straightforward about this, but many of us (including myself) will say it as a form of comfort to someone as if it [...]

Follow The Bread Crumbs

Have you ever heard the saying "God laughs when we make plans?" While it carries a somewhat pessimistic undertone, I think that the older I get the more I understand it. We all make plans. Society teaches us to make plans. You grow up, move out of your parent's house, obtain employment, etc. Maybe you [...]