The Willingness to Stay Sober

Willingness. It's defined by the Oxford Dictionary as,"the quality or state of being prepared or ready to do something." There are plenty of things that I can honestly say I will be pretty much always be willing to do. Am I willing to go to the beach? Yup. Willing to take a nap? Always. Willing [...]

Twelve Steps Under Attack

I didn't really start coming "out" about my life of recovery until the last year or so (which was at almost seven years sober). It's not that I was purposely trying to hide anything, but I guess I wanted to get some time under my belt and allow people to make their mind up about [...]

The Day I Realized the Obsession to Drink and Drug Was Gone

I have been asked two questions a lot lately, so I thought I would take some time to answer them. The questions are: How long did it take before you stopped wanting to drink/use? What did you do to make that happen? Well, here's my answer. I don't remember exactly how long I had been [...]

Is Society More Accepting of a Drinking Problem than a Drug Problem?

I am ten and a half years sober from a drinking problem and seven and a half years sober from an opioid problem. Since the last time that I placed any mood-altering substances into my body was December 7th of 2010, that is the date that I count myself as first getting clean and sober. [...]

What Kind of Person Will I Be if I Get Sober?

"I feel like I've lost my best friend," I said to my counselor after being in a treatment center for a couple of days. "Well, in a weird and somewhat unhealthy way, you have," she said. I wasn't talking about a person. I was talking about the OxyContin. I was talking about my Captain Morgan. [...]

What Does it Take for an Addict to Finally Hit Bottom?

It was about 5am one morning in 2007. I had been binge drinking and topping that off with various pharmaceuticals for the past 48 hours. My supply of pills was gone, and the boos were starting to wear off. Those God-awful DTs had begun. As I lie on the floor sweating, the only thing I [...]

Infertility in Sobriety

I've spoken in the past about the "Big Duh" when it comes to asking yourself why your life is in constant turmoil. For me, the "Big Duh" was my alcoholism. Even in the midst of all of the numbing, boozing, and pills, I could see that my life would become tremendously more manageable if I [...]