The Willingness to Stay Sober

Willingness. It's defined by the Oxford Dictionary as,"the quality or state of being prepared or ready to do something." There are plenty of things that I can honestly say I will be pretty much always be willing to do. Am I willing to go to the beach? Yup. Willing to take a nap? Always. Willing [...]

What Kind of Person Will I Be if I Get Sober?

"I feel like I've lost my best friend," I said to my counselor after being in a treatment center for a couple of days. "Well, in a weird and somewhat unhealthy way, you have," she said. I wasn't talking about a person. I was talking about the OxyContin. I was talking about my Captain Morgan. [...]

What Does it Take for an Addict to Finally Hit Bottom?

It was about 5am one morning in 2007. I had been binge drinking and topping that off with various pharmaceuticals for the past 48 hours. My supply of pills was gone, and the boos were starting to wear off. Those God-awful DTs had begun. As I lie on the floor sweating, the only thing I [...]

Infertility in Sobriety

I've spoken in the past about the "Big Duh" when it comes to asking yourself why your life is in constant turmoil. For me, the "Big Duh" was my alcoholism. Even in the midst of all of the numbing, boozing, and pills, I could see that my life would become tremendously more manageable if I [...]

Addiction is Just a Symptom

I spent a large portion of my life feeling like something was missing. It was like I was literally a walking puzzle with all but one piece. No matter what I did, I never felt complete. In the beginning, you think it must be that something specific is missing. Something tangible. If I just find [...]

10 Things I Learned During My First Year of Sobriety

The first year of sobriety is a physical, emotional, and spiritual roller coaster. When I got sober in 2010, I knew that I was in for a ride. There were plenty of ups and downs, laughs and tears - but man, there is just nothing like finally picking up your one-year medallion! Here are 10 [...]

Keeping the Faith – Are You Wonderstruck by God?

As my husband and I have begun the journey of adopting a child, I have taken it as an opportunity to grow my faith. Adoption is stressful, difficult, and nothing can be for certain. We both walk into it hopeful, but also scared of the uncertainty of it all. Because of that, I decided that [...]