What Kind of Person Will I Be if I Get Sober?

"I feel like I've lost my best friend," I said to my counselor after being in a treatment center for a couple of days. "Well, in a weird and somewhat unhealthy way, you have," she said. I wasn't talking about a person. I was talking about the OxyContin. I was talking about my Captain Morgan. [...]

Infertility in Sobriety

I've spoken in the past about the "Big Duh" when it comes to asking yourself why your life is in constant turmoil. For me, the "Big Duh" was my alcoholism. Even in the midst of all of the numbing, boozing, and pills, I could see that my life would become tremendously more manageable if I [...]

Addiction is Just a Symptom

I spent a large portion of my life feeling like something was missing. It was like I was literally a walking puzzle with all but one piece. No matter what I did, I never felt complete. In the beginning, you think it must be that something specific is missing. Something tangible. If I just find [...]

10 Things I Learned During My First Year of Sobriety

The first year of sobriety is a physical, emotional, and spiritual roller coaster. When I got sober in 2010, I knew that I was in for a ride. There were plenty of ups and downs, laughs and tears - but man, there is just nothing like finally picking up your one-year medallion! Here are 10 [...]

How I Got Through the First 90 Days of Sobriety

December 7th, 2010 was the last time that any mood altering substance entered my body. Prior to that, I had been a slave to the disease of addiction since the age of 21. I took my first drink at the age of  13. I had no idea what the future held from that first drink [...]

The Freedom To Be Me

I am not the most unique nor the most boring person. I am not the most beautiful, but definitely not ugly either. I did not come from an impoverished family but did not come from riches. My life has not been something from a Hollywood movie, but I can assure you it has not been [...]